Money, Resistance, and the Moment You Stop Running
A chapter about procrastination, power, and the courage to let wealth support your soul.
Money is not avoiding you.
It is waiting for you to become someone who can hold it.
Two hours of rolling on my bed, circling this piece about money.
My body restless. My mind negotiating. My heart already knowing.
The same song played on SoundCloud, again and again, looped like a ritual I refused to complete.
Okay, I told myself, I’ll start when the song begins again. I lost count of how many times I made that promise. Until finally, here and now, I opened my notes and began typing.
And that’s when I saw it clearly: This wasn’t laziness.
This wasn’t lack of discipline. This was resistance.
Procrastination is not a flaw.
It is a signal. It visits all of us without exception.
The only difference between those who lead their lives and those who delay them
is not whether procrastination shows up but what they do when it does.
Some people become incredibly skilled at creating reasons to postpone.
Others learn the far more powerful skill of overriding resistance
by calling forward self-leadership and doing what is required, even while the body trembles.
Here is the truth few will admit:
The more important the task, the louder the resistance.
When you delay, your inner authority weakens.
When you move, despite the discomfort, you strengthen something ancient inside you. No wonder it took me hours to write about money.
Money is not a neutral topic in our culture.
It shapes how we breathe.
How we rest.
How safe we feel in our bodies.
We say we’re “trying not to be affected by it.”
We repeat affirmations.
We spiritualize scarcity.
Sometimes we even make people with more money wrong, just to soften the ache of having less.
But rarely do we pause long enough to ask:
What is money, really?
Money is energy.
It is movement.
It is agreement.
Our ancestors traded salt for meat, value for value.
As humanity evolved, we created coins, then paper, then numbers on a screen, and collectively agreed they meant something.
Most humans still use money for survival:
food, shelter, clothing.
But survival has evolved.
Today, internet connection is essential.
A laptop is essential.
A phone is essential.
I could not write these words
could not translate sensation into language
without this device and this connection.
Both were made possible by money.
Everything you see carries a price tag.
Everything around you was shaped, moved, or sustained by it.
Money is a tool
one so powerful it can even regulate the quality of your breath.
So pause for a moment.
What happens in your body when you think about money?
Does your chest tighten?
Does your jaw clench?
Do you long for more?
Money is an amplifier. It expands whatever energy it meets. It is neither good nor bad. It reflects who is holding it and how it is being used.
You need it, whether you like it or not.
And most people resist it not because it’s harmful,
but because they don’t know how to relate to it with clarity and reverence.
Money is neutral energy.
It does not come because you are kind.
It does not leave because you are flawed.
Money goes where there is value. And value is subjective
shaped by need, timing, desire, and vision.
Which means our responsibility is clear:
To create value.
And to build systems that allow money to land, circulate, and stay.
This is why franchises thrive.
Not because they are more spiritual
but because they understand flow, structure, and sustainability.
I see money as holy. Because it supports my soul mission.
Because it nourishes my body. Because it allows vision to become form.
I love having money because it gives me choice.
Where I go.
What I build.
How I live.
I did not grow up wealthy.
My father worked in a pharmaceutical company for over thirty years.
We lived decently. We ate well. But I felt the weight he carried, the quiet pressure of provision. He wished we had more.
And I wished it too, so he wouldn’t have to hold that burden alone. He worked hard.
And yet this era has taught us something essential:
Hard work alone is not the path to wealth.
This is the age of innovation.
Entrepreneurship.
Multiple streams of income.
Thinking beyond the box we were handed.
Money flows to value, and it stays where there is a system to hold it.
As I write this, another truth emerges:
Money carries a feminine quality.
It is drawn to beauty.
To intentional spaces.
To elegance.
To experiences that feel safe and well-held.
Just like the feminine
money flows where there is structure without rigidity,
and freedom without chaos.
To create value, you must first see value in yourself.
To build systems, you must learn how money moves, rests, and circulates.
Money is not here to control you.
It is here to collaborate with you.
When you stop resisting it,
when you stop moralizing it,
when you learn to hold it with clarity and integrity, your entire life recalibrates.
Not into excess. But into choice.
If something in your body softened as you read this
if you felt recognition, this work is calling you.
I offer private 1:1 coaching for leaders, founders, and visionaries who are ready to:
- Clarify their true value
- Build systems that can safely hold wealth
- Unwind inherited money beliefs
- Regulate their nervous system for expansion
- Create wealth that serves both them and their lineage
This is not about hustling harder.
It is about becoming someone wealth can trust.
To book a 1:1 private call:
Email me at → genozajoanne@gmail.com
You are not meant to struggle through life. You are meant to choose it.
With love,
Joanne Genoza
Joanne Genoza
Joanne Genoza